thearapy

Ok this is not me giving advice about what to do with your life.
So if thats what you're looking for stop reading now.





I have always been an emotional person but tried to keep it under control by finding things to do such as when I'm angry or just in a bad mood i dance and all the stress and tension goes away and i dance more passionately, similar to this when I'm upset or feeling emotional i sing and let all my emotions flow into the song. i personally find this very therapeutic and enjoy it in the end ( i do also find a good cry helps sometimes and watching a slushy film with chocolate and ice-cream.) But i cant do either at the moment! And i honestly don't know what to do with myself! I have Hyper-mobility which means I'm ridiculously flexible and can do crazy thing with my body, this normally has no problems accept my hips pop out every now and again but the other day my right hip popped out and i couldn't pop it back in and it was out further than ever before, my most amasing friend  helped me pop it back in and look after me but i found t painful to walk on and could not straighten it, i thought it would you know go away but after two days it got worse so i went to the hospital and had hip x-rays and all sorts, i had to wait for 6 hours did i mention in order to see the doctor i mean seriously someone needs to sort the health system out because there was one women who was puking she was that ill and they just sat her down and gave her a bucket and another guy was rushed in from an ambulance and was wrapped in a blanket, this guy was very elderly and was obviously confused and didn't even know the time i might add and he was just wheeled over to the corner and told he might have to wait a while but someone will come and collect him, at this point the wait time was 5 hours, so he would have sat there for 5 hours with not a clue whats going on all on his own with nothing to do, bless him. Honestly i was horrified! But when i finally got into the doctor he took hours to figure out what was wrong, with me having to answer a load of questions due to my hip x-ray like is there any chance i could be pregnant, and when was my last period, while being placed into very unladylike positions in order to take my x-ray, and in the end he figured out that what i had wrong was exactly what my partner thought i had wrong anyway which is that i have torn my quadricep mussels  and have to wear a pressure bandage and can't dance for at least 2 weeks!!!!!!!! Now i understand that i need to get better but two weeks! seriously do they not understand how grumpy I'm going to get and yeah i do feel kinda sorry for myself but more than that i feel for my mates and my gorgeous boyfriend who has already put up with me crying my eyes out about the pain and cuddled me though my stressing out, and if that wasn't enough they all now have to deal with the mega bitch from hell, excuse my french but i really do feel for them and want to apologise in advance for my crabby-ness. But yer so i can't dance and now to make matters worse i have a sore throat and so i can't even sing! anyway i am sorry for that little rant but it had to be done cause i feel so strange that everything i do i can't. so yeah hopefully next time i will be a little cheerier. talk later xxxxxxxxxxx